我却只要那段最美的回忆

Bloggie

2011-06-10T13:37:00.003+08:00

It has been a long time that i visited this place, and before i leave again, do enjoy the rainbow that always smiles at you.

Back

2010-11-17T21:06:00.000+08:00

FINALLY BACK

Happy 22nd Birthday

2010-05-26T23:25:00.002+08:00

Happy Birthday to you.....Happy Birthday to you......Happy Birthday to Chermaine Siew...Happy Birthday to you !!!!

Chermaine Siew

2010-05-17T23:36:00.000+08:00

I Love you Chermaine Siew :P

Driving

2010-05-13T02:12:00.002+08:00

I decided to go back to learn driving :)

Happy 4th Anniversary

2010-04-08T23:53:00.004+08:00

Happy 4th year anniversary!!! i thought of doing something special this year rather than exchanging of presents(so boring) part of another reason is adrian is enlisting in 4 May 2010 which means that he won't be able to celebrate my birthday with me (Wtf) and i am going to start my diploma course on 5 may. Thanks adrian because i know that you hate to smile alot but during the photoshoot i saw many of your genuine smile that made my day. Once again happy 4th year and love you.

***Love you my dear Mr Tan

有时候,请聼一下你的心?

2010-03-09T22:30:00.002+08:00

This is the second week since i left RSM Chio Lim, i would say that i missed my working times with my peeps because everyday when i wake up, i will stare into blanks some of you might think "why are you grumbling when you get to rest at home?" but to me it is nothing to be happy about. My daily routine is to be a good maid, washing bowls, sweep the floor & stare into spaces, how i wish i can go back to work!!! But i guess i have to work forward to study now...:(

New year

2010-02-21T17:51:00.002+08:00

As usual, we will have a party at my xiao-yi house with some strangers that we have never met in our life :P , New year atmosphere is in the air...Counting down to my last days in RSM Chio Lim, Counting my days to our 4th year anniversary, Counting down to our virgin studio shoots but definitely not counting down to the days that adrian is going to serve his NS :(

Happy 2010

2010-02-16T01:53:00.000+08:00

HAPPY NEW YEAR !!!!

PASSED

2010-01-22T23:47:00.001+08:00

I PASSED MY BTT & FTT....Driving lessons i am COMING!!!!!Wait for me!!!

Sick

2010-01-12T23:27:00.000+08:00

My dearest Chermaine is sick :(

Unpaid Leave

2010-01-07T22:43:00.000+08:00

On unpaid leave tmr :) going for movie and shopping :) :) :)

Question: WHY?

2010-01-05T22:47:00.003+08:00

Why can people be so unfaithful to their partners? why can people change overnight? Why people talk of getting married early when they are too young? Why money PLAY such a important role in love? Saw something that din pissed me off but it kind of make me wonder why they can change their love so easily when they have been together for so long?

A letter to Chermaine Siew's Heart

2010-01-03T02:55:00.004+08:00

Dear Chermaine Siew's heart, there is something i am dying to tell you for the past 6 mths...you are not going to make it this time...just leave everything behind and find yourself something that will make you happy...

I am leaving RSM Chio Lim because i have choose to further my studies partly i am not really happy in there...not because of the people but it is i cannot handle the things that i am doing at all...call me lazy or trying to run away from my problem :(

I told my buddy of my intention of leaving because i am not doing well in the job and i am planning to go back and study...she told me that she loved to hold me back but since it is a education reason, she see no reason to not let me go...She din look at me when i went in to my director's room to break the news because she told me that she will cry.

First Person - Adrian,
I told him that i am going back to study, he said that he is very happy for me after that he msg me " No matter what choice you made, i will always be there for you..Come i give you a big big hug...i cried and never know that this sweet guy of mine can say such words.

Second person that i called- My Mummy,
"Mummy , i want to go back and study..i asked whether she feel that i am useless but she told me " Since two mths ago, you broke down and tell me your troubles , i know that you are really at your end. No matter what you do, mummy will always by your side" Oh god i really cried in the phone...She gave me a big hug when i am home and said that she is happy for me...

Third Person- My sister
" Same thing, she asked me to wash up, go home, eat dinner, bath, on the computer to see what course i would like to study.

Fourth Person - Meng Ching
I felt that he was my mentor and i think it is basic courtesy to tell me that i am leaving...he said that he is happy for me...Thanks meng ching, you have been consoling, telling me that you need time to adjust.

Fifth Person - My Daddy
I broke the news to him that i am going back to study and he said that it is good to study because in singapore without any qualifications, you won't be able to go far and people won't look down on you...Thanks daddy, i will remember your words...

After i broke the news, i became more relaxed...That night i had a sweet and relaxed sleep...

Good Night Chermaine Siew, Chermaine Siew's Heart, Daddy,Mummy,Melissa,Jeremy and Adrian...I Love all of you..Sweet Dreams

Christmas Present from my collegues

2009-12-28T21:19:00.005+08:00

Sweets

Suyen

Shuqing

Sally Yap

Ms Saw

Merlina

Meng Ching

Jenny

Emily

Catherine Tan

Carol Yuen

Anna Low

Analyn

Aijuan

Hoho...it is christmas time...i was in penang during christmas...and i was shocked to received so many presents from my fellow collegues...:X

Dearest Mr Tan

2009-12-05T23:12:00.002+08:00

Dear Mr Tan Wei Chew made his girlfriend happy and he never failed to be amused by the stupid things that she is doing...like her newly learn " Superman Pose"( too much work stress for her to handle)...he mentioned to me that he will be serving the NS in five months and the thing that he worried about me is that i will never take good care of myself :) Nah that will be the time i will be galavanting...Bye Mr Tan i will be enjoying myself...

纸飞机

2009-11-29T23:34:00.003+08:00

I went to parkway parade today...and i saw one of the toy that we used to play when we were really young. 纸飞机 pls take away all my troubles..pls give me the peace that i am entitled.

RSM Chio Lim Dinner and Dance

2009-11-23T21:42:00.005+08:00

My Prize - 320GB External Hard Drive

My Team - B5

1) Mr Kenny Yeo (He won a camera)

2) Ms Emily Thng Aka Mrs Weng

3) Ms Chermaine Siew

My Team - B5
1) Mr Kenny Yeo (He won a camera)
2) Ms Emily Thng Aka Mrs Weng
3) Ms Chermaine Siew

1) Ms Akiyo Yamamoto ( Mrs Something)

2) Ms Anna Low

3) Ms Chermaine Siew

1) Ms Anna Low
2) Ms Chermaine Siew

* She is my talking buddy...so pai seh that she and her boyfriend gave me a ride home despite i am living in tampines, she stays at Hougang and her bf stayed in Jurong West..X)

If you are wondering why we dressed so casual is because the theme is back to the basic.

ACRA is on the air...

2009-10-30T21:53:00.001+08:00

Got myself this to cheer me up after a long day of work...HAHA...my prayers was answered because i only filed one annual return because ACRA has problem...LOL..i had to called them four times before they answered my call however after the call, i happily went go around distributing biscuits...Suddenly someone shouted "who called ACRA?" Emily say that it was me and i had to go back my desk to answer the call HOWEVER i had biscuits in my mouth yet to be munched if i were to talk the crumbs will definitely fly all around my desk no choice i had to vomit out it ( I know it sounds gross) But the person is looking for Anna...Dots..i wasted my biscuits.

Annual Filing

2009-10-29T22:30:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow will be a tiring day because it is the last day for file for annual return( it means filing of a company's accounts)...i hope that the documents won't come back tomorrow...LOL..because i know that ACRA system is going to be down... it becomes the website that everyone "loves" ...got to rest and go to work early to help emily...Good Night..Sweet Dreams

Tongues are vicious

2009-10-25T03:16:00.003+08:00

Recently there are things happened in my surrounding that make me feel like a sucker..things started when i attended my best friend's 21st Bdae party, i met someone that i dislike because she has been gossiping about me and my friend about being together, asking him to snatch me away from adrian, shouting his name during the graduation day and the worst thing she accuse me of looking down at just because i earn more money than her. Totally rubbish i think so, i merely asked by not try finding a permanent job because the salary is more stable. If you define it as looking down at you, i seriously think she should learn to improve more on her language. Turning up for your friend's bdae party but you did not even get him a present? LOL...she even say that luckily her bf is not here if not... hey bit*ch i don't give a damn about your boyfriend ! so what he is here? is he going to beat me? Touch me if he dares! THANKS to you i finally see the true colour of my friend, you can continue to be his friend but i got better things to do! why should i waste my time on you?

Kim Bun playng a saxaphone

2009-10-19T01:51:00.002+08:00

*** He is damn handsome in the show ;)

Back to 1

2009-10-17T16:37:00.002+08:00

Hello i am back again since my last post in september, time to update the things that i have gone through this few months.

1) Working is always not easy for me
2) Struggling to make a living for myself
3) Watching my bank account depleting everyday
4) Never fail to laze on the bed every morning
5) Chasing after my favourite bus 518 that will be bring me to my working area
6) Thinking about what is for lunch
7) Endless work to do
8) Endless AGM documents
9) Endless Errors
10) Endless Processing
11) Endless annual filing( which i have started doing for 3 companies)

Emily- My mentor
Times are not easy for especially when i did something wrong , i really like to bang my head on the wall for doing it. I felt dishearted each time, my mentor will always give me the encouragement to move on. She is really one of the nicest person that i have met although she can be very straightforward at times but i know that things she say are meant for me.

Adrian
My dearest sweetbeau who complains that my temper is getting from bad to worse since the day i have started to work, he is going to join the army in may..remember what you have promised me you must be the best! i know that i won't be seeing you often but don't worry i will take good care of myself, thanks for providing a shoulder for when i am down AND sorry for making you wait when i have to do OT.

My family
Thanks for brighten up my life although there are many things that i experience in work when i needed someone to talk but i hid it because i think i am old enough to handle it...you raise me up to become someone that is useful. Thanks for the love that you have provided me .

Happy Pills

2009-09-11T19:00:00.000+08:00

If happy pills makes me happy den i will F**** need the whole dozen

Alive

2009-09-10T22:56:00.000+08:00

I am still alive( "_")

Trying ordering macdonald's through singing

2009-08-16T22:15:00.001+08:00

The Leap Year

2009-08-16T20:53:00.000+08:00

Couple Book Mark

2009-08-16T02:21:00.000+08:00

Adrian & I brought this bookmark in precious thots for reading our books. He is reading on stocks market while i am reading harry potter & half blood prince, i seriously think that the story of the movie is DOTS because some of the characters that are supposed to appear din show up..the best thing is harry and ginny din kiss when they went to the room of requirement to hid the half blood prince book...It is when ginny won the quidditch game, harry kissed her. So disappointing, time to mug on my book...
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Lastly good night sweet dreams my sweetbeau..Thanks for consoling me when you know i am not at fault, thanks for telling me the joke about never to name our child michael and ken..i hope you will get the thing that you want soon... Love you

我知道

2009-08-15T17:48:00.001+08:00

Weekend

2009-08-15T01:54:00.001+08:00

I am smelling you...

Maligned

2009-08-12T22:41:00.000+08:00

It is rare that i voice out my unhappiness because i think that it should be forgetten. I really don't understand why people don't believe me? it really hurts me alot that "you are giving excuses" in the first place i did not done anything wrong. I sigh a sense of relief when i found the thing that is able to prove my innocence :D thank god. This incident happened twice today and thank god half of the day was gone if not you will be hearing me sighing the whole day.

Happy Birthday

2009-07-26T01:15:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday Serene Tan...Stay sweet with your boyfriend...

Dreams..

2009-07-26T01:04:00.000+08:00

Yesterday night i dreamt of someone that i have missed for the past few years...in my dreams i saw him playing a different instrument but he still looked charming on the scene but why does it hurts badly on my wound...people say that i should moved on...he happily wave to me , i was shocked...I wished that i would see him again but i think it will never come true :(

Lucky Clover

2009-07-09T22:35:00.000+08:00

My new indulge...:X

I am still surviving

2009-07-06T21:23:00.000+08:00

I AM STILL ALIVE..work is damn tiring:(

My 21st Bdae Pictures

2009-06-27T22:20:00.000+08:00

1) My dearest Mummy- my mum is a wonderful person who is willing to sacrificed her time, youth to take care the 3 of us yet she never mumble anything. Every time she will call home to ask me about the food that I would like to have for dinner? .When she and daddy left for Japan trip, I cried because I won’t be able to see her for a week. I am so used to see her home around 7pm instead she gave me a very big hug and assured me that she will be home soon.

2) My dearest Daddy- my dad is the one who is always bullied by us, he is the one who always shield us from the beatings. He never requests anything from us, he too sacrificed his time, youth to take care the 3 of us yet he never mumbles anything. I missed him too when he left for Japan. I will never forget the sms that he send to me when I sms him my final results…I am so happy that is very good I am very proud of you. Daddy I want you to quit smoking

3) My dearest Melissa- my sister is one of them who always shield me from the beating. She is a hardworking student who always prepares herself 5 months before the exams. Once my tooth bleeds, I thought that it was going to drop and New Year is in a week time. Instead she rushed down to bring me to a dentist. She send me a sms “I am Here Don’t worry”

4) My dearest Jeremy –my brother is different from the 3 of us...he is a bit impatient. He just doesn’t know how to show how much he loves us. When we need help he will always be there. He will always ransack my cabinet to find titbits to instant noodle. He loves to crack jokes to lighten the atmosphere.

5) Last but not least my dearest sweetheart Adrian- My heart skip whenever you tell me that you are going for NS soon and we only have less than six months for each other He is a very understanding boyfriend; we can talk anything under the sun. Someone who gives me surprises occasionally, someone who always sings good night song to me.

If there is a next life, I still want all of you to be my family members but this time it is my turn to take care of the four of you except Adrian because I am still going to tell god that I still want to be a girl.

Work Time

2009-06-20T00:25:00.000+08:00

My stuff toys

My locker Key

Things that i use everyday

First day of work

Working permanently in a office job is quite tiring because when i first step into the office, i was really scared because i am afraid that i can't get along with my collegues however during my first few days they really took care of me when my buddy was away. I can always turn to them when i needed real help...it was like a big family working all together. There are also times i really make serious mistakes that are enough to kill...although the official off work time is 6pm but sometimes i go home around an hour later..LOL..today is friday and i am lovin it...there was a quote that studying is always better than working but now i know how true this sentence can be...

** Dear all, i have received the photos for my birthday but pls give me time to update because i need a long rest to replenish my energy.

Singapore Flyer

2009-06-14T23:59:00.000+08:00

This photos are supposed to be post out long time ago just that i am so busy that i forget to do it...adrian and i went for the singapore flyer on my birthday...LOL...at last he brought me there...it was a unforgettable birthday for me because in our life...we can only celebrate 21 once..there is a lot of things you can do when you turn 21 like going to casino, pub, clubs and watch movies that are suitable for adults only...HAHA..of course i won't do that la...because i will blush ...he gave me a huge balloon that has another balloon inside it however i frown when i heard the price because it costed $40 dollars..he sneak out during his break just to buy the balloon...THANKS MR SWEETBEAU...

During the ride, i just froze there because i am afraid of heights...he tried to distract my attention by talking to me but i asked him to shut up..and let me sit on the bench...LOL...after while, i slowly stood up and start to cam-whore...i was afraid because i think the glass is fragile...and i really admire jackie chan for his stunts...it is really lucky of us to have the whole cabin to us..however we paid a higher price than others because we chosed the champagne with complimentary strawberry,chocolate and champagne.

After the ride we went to MOS for dinner, i got my free ice-cream..

Only the two of us are inside the cabin..because it was a weekday

C=Champagne=Chermaine

Stop pinching my nose

$40 balloon

Little Mr & Miss

2009-06-14T03:44:00.000+08:00

Mr Dear= Adrian(Mr Sweetheart)

Little Miss White= Chermaine( Because i love white colour alot)

Thanks for loving me

2009-06-13T02:27:00.000+08:00

When i take a look at the diamond ring..i knew that it was his promise to me..i really know it because i believe the ring must have cost him a bomb...it is definitely means more than a normal ring..it is like a engagement ring to me..i remember i always grumble to him that i don't have a nice jewellery to go with my dress during chinese new year because i have skin allergy thus caused me to be sensitive against necklace and earrings. I once told him that i am going to get a small ring when i start working because my mum won't nag me for spending her money on the ring...LOL...i guess this time he really answered my calls...thanks adrian...thanks for the ring...thanks for telling me how important i am to you and lastly thanks for loving me...

My 21st Birthday Present From Adrian

2009-05-29T20:20:00.000+08:00

Why am i so happy today?

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Because i received my 21st birthday present from adrian....thanks sweetheart i love the ring to the bits...

My 21st Birthday Chalet

2009-05-27T01:26:00.000+08:00

Time to update on my 21st bdae chalet however the photographs that are taken by han rong isnt ready yet. First Of all i would like to thanks each and one of you who attended my chalet because it was really a dream come true...and for your presents..I wanted to read out a speech for my family members however i back out because i am afraid that i will cry...true enough i did cry but they are the tears of joy...time passes so fast i turned 21 this year soon i will be in my mid 20 plus..I will be going to work on monday..what should i say? the fear of being alone in the office scares me alot but i think i just need time to adapt.. Since my family members are unable to hear my speech thus i will include in this entry..

1) My dearest Mummy- my mum is a wonderful person who is willing to sacrificed her time, youth to take care the 3 of us yet she never mumble anything. Every time she will call home to ask me about the food that I would like to have for dinner? .When she and daddy left for Japan trip, I cried because I won’t be able to see her for a week. I am so used to see her home around 7pm instead she gave me a very big hug and assured me that she will be home soon.

2) My dearest Daddy- my dad is the one who is always bullied by us, he is the one who always shield us from the beatings. He never requests anything from us, he too sacrificed his time, youth to take care the 3 of us yet he never mumbles anything. I missed him too when he left for Japan. I will never forget the sms that he send to me when I sms him my final results…I am so happy that is very good I am very proud of you. Daddy I want you to quit smoking

3) My dearest Melissa- my sister is one of them who always shield me from the beating. She is a hardworking student who always prepares herself 5 months before the exams. Once my tooth bleeds, I thought that it was going to drop and New Year is in a week time. Instead she rushed down to bring me to a dentist. She send me a sms “I am Here Don’t worry”

4) My dearest Jeremy –my brother is different from the 3 of us...he is a bit impatient. He just doesn’t know how to show how much he loves us. When we need help he will always be there. He will always ransack my cabinet to find titbits to instant noodle. He loves to crack jokes to lighten the atmosphere.

5) Last but not least my dearest sweetheart Adrian- My heart skip whenever you tell me that you are going for NS soon and we only have less than six months for each other He is a very understanding boyfriend; we can talk anything under the sun. Someone who gives me surprises occasionally, someone who always sings good night song to me.

If there is a next life, I still want all of you to be my family members but this time it is my turn to take care of the four of you except Adrian because I am still going to tell god that I still want to be a girl.

Happy Birthday Chermaine

2009-05-26T15:00:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday to Chermaine..thats me ;X

Singapore Flyer

2009-05-21T23:32:00.000+08:00

Sweetheart and Me are going for the singapore flyer on my birthday...he planned for the surprise long time ago however he made a mistake by telling me that he might need his girl classmate's credit card to book something and he told me not to be a jealousy monster WTH...At that moment i knew that he is going to bring me to singapore flyer..BUT he asked me to shut up don talk so much and eat my dinner...BOO HOO...He tried to sound me out whether i wanted the normal flight or the champagne flight.. because if you are going for the champagne flight you will get

Ticket Privileges
The Moët & Chandon Champagne Flight (Individual):
1 flute of Moët & Chandon champagne
1 rotation (30 minutes)
Express Boarding
Complimentary VIP Lounge Access*
Complimentary chocolates
Complimentary strawberries

Of course i choose the champagne flight because i am not the one paying however i offered to lend my credit card for the payment as i am afraid we might need his friend card for confirmation Hey Mr tan transfer the fund back to my account or i will hang a big head on your door...LOL..Thanks sweetheart...you are really a sweetheart ;) good luck for your presentation tmr..<3

Happy Bdae Daddy

2009-05-18T17:43:00.000+08:00

Happy 52th birthday DADDY..Good luck for your toto

My Heart

2009-05-17T01:23:00.000+08:00

I don't know why my heart started to pickled..

OoO

2009-05-14T19:54:00.000+08:00

Time to update my blog...
i went to send my phone for the last repair as my warranty is going to expire soon, meet up with adrian for dinner and for him to pass me the spare phone that is going to be my property...LOL.. i was so lazy that i din even want to go down to buy my lunch..my birthday chalet is in less than a week...most of the preparations are ready like the cake and the buffet...i am really looking forward to that day... Hey guys i will update you on the shuttle bus timings and venue asap...

haha

2009-05-12T00:29:00.000+08:00

UPDATE SOON ;)

Different Stages of my life

2009-05-06T00:07:00.000+08:00

Jeremy: You have a big mouth

Daddy

My favourite sleeping posture since young

Gong Gong & Po Po

Daddy: Melissa Looked like a japanese girl

Jeremy: Hey Time to look at the camera !

Everyone Smile!

Baby Me

Dont twist my head ;)

Christmas Time

Sentosa Trip

Three Little Pig

Mummy's Birthday

Mummy & Me

Young Me

Melissa said that i looked the cutest among the three of us xP

Sometimes

2009-05-01T18:02:00.000+08:00

sometimes,you really can find out one person could will stand by you,no matter what.... you do appreciate that one in our life...there is also the chance that the one person you can count on for a life time, the one person who knows you sometimes better than you know yourself. It's the same person who will be standing beside you all along.

I FOUND A JOB

2009-05-01T14:31:00.000+08:00

I FOUND A JOB ;)

HAPPY DAY

2009-04-28T15:04:00.000+08:00

Melissa is HOME !!! yuppie..just that she is still having cold shoulders from mummy...at least she is home now...i couldnt sleep the whole night becos i am thinking about my future, job. i really hope that i can get a job and settle down real fast ;)) Losing your beauty sleep is horrible becos my eye bag become darker..I am really looking forward to my graduation ceremony on 7 may...it has been a long time since we meet up after the exams..sorry peeps i din went to the outing after our exams due to some problems..i really thank each of you that had helped me in my life in ITE..it is really nice to know all of you..where ever path we are going into..i sincerely wished you all all the best in everything you are doing be it studying,working. Thanks Girls

Happy Birthday Melissa

2009-04-25T15:39:00.000+08:00

Happy Birthday MELISSA!! I wish you all the best in your career, love life etc...COME HOME SOON we all missed you very much..Find yourself a husband so that i can take good care of your baby **I Hope the old witch is dead! causing us so much trouble..Not to mentioned in here what had happened..miss you..

PISSED OFF

2009-04-17T23:21:00.000+08:00

Sometimes have you ever wonder things that are not done by you yet you get all the blame? Is it my fault that i slept at 3am? Is it my fault that you were late for your ceremony? ALL I GET WAS THE BLAME!! I don owe you anything in my life! Have you ever help me do stuffs? when i need to get my printer fixed? you just give me a stupid excuse like i will bring you next time! For 2 years my printer hasnt been repaired! you simply treat me as a maid! you bloody jerk! asking me to collect your registered mail, taking your handphone for repair, buy your contact len solution? Who was there when i needed help? TELL ME YOU BLOODY ASSHOLE! THANKS FOR BEING A JERK! STAY AWAY FROM ME!

Smile

2009-04-16T00:41:00.000+08:00

**I WANT MY SMILE BACK

GET AWAY

2009-04-16T00:39:00.000+08:00

**I WANT MY SMILE BACK

Give me some help

2009-04-16T00:26:00.000+08:00

O Mighty God...Pls give me all the love and energy that you have...i am really at the end of breaking down...just shower me some love that you can spare to me...i am at a lost situation..i don't know how to do...pls..HELP ME

Kinder Surprise

2009-04-13T00:47:00.000+08:00

Every Child's Source Of Happiness

Sweet Love Story

2009-04-13T00:41:00.000+08:00

Here it goes:

My husband is an engineer by profession, I love him for his steady nature and I love the warm feeling when I lean against his broad shoulders.

Two years of courtship and now, five years into marriage, I would have to admit, that I am getting tired of it. The reasons of me loving him before, has now transformed into the cause of all my restlessness.

I am a sentimental woman and extremely sensitive when it comes to a relationship and my feelings. I yearn for the romantic moments, like a little girl yearning for candy. My husband is my complete opposite; his lack of sensitivity, and the inability of bringing romantic moments into our marriage has disheartened me about LOVE.
One day, I finally decided to tell him my decision, that I wanted a divorce.

'Why?' he asked, shocked.

'I am tired. There are no reasons for everything in the world!' I answered.

He kept silent the whole night, seemingly in deep thought. My feeling of disappointment only increased. Here was a man who was not able to even express his predicament, so what else could I expect from him?

And finally he asked me: 'What can I do to change your mind?'

Looking deep into his eyes I slowly answered: 'Here is the question. If you can answer and convince my heart, I will change my mind.

Let's say, I want a flower located on the face of a mountain cliff, and we both are sure that picking the flower will cause your death.
Will you do it for me?'
He said: 'I will give you your answer tomorrow.'

I woke up the next morning to find him gone, and saw a piece of paper with his scratchy handwriting underneath a milk glass, on the dining table near the front door, that goes.

My dear, 'I would not pick that flower for you, but.please allow me to explain the reasons further..
This first line was already breaking my heart. I continued reading.

'When you use the computer you always mess up the Software programs, I have to save my fingers so that I can help to restore the programs.

You always leave the house keys behind, thus I have to save my legs to rush home to open the door for you.

You love traveling but always lose your way in a new city . I have to save my eyes to show you the way.

You always have the cramps whenever your 'good friend' approaches every month. I have to save my palms so that I can calm the cramps in your tummy.

You like to stay indoors, and I worry that you will be infected by infantile autism. I have to save my mouth to tell you jokes and stories to cure your boredom.

You always stare at the computer, and that will do nothing good for your eyes. I have to save my eyes so that when we grow old, I can help to clip ur nails and help to remove those annoying white hairs.

So I can also hold your hand while strolling down the beach, as you enjoy the sunshine and the beautiful sand.. and tell you the colour of flowers, just like the colour of the glow on your young face..

Thus, my dear, unless I am sure that there is someone who loves you more than I do.. I could not pick that flower yet, and die ..

My tears fell on the letter, and blurred the ink of his handwritingand as I continue on reading'Now, that you have finished reading my answer, and if you are satisfied, please open the front door for I am standing outside bringing your favorite bread and fresh milk..

I rushed to pull open the door, and saw his anxious face, clutching tightly with his hands, the milk bottle and loaf of bread.Now I am very sure that no one will ever love me as much as he does, and I have decided to leave the flower alone..

~THE END~

** I wished that adrian and me will end up like the couple in the story..

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2009-04-07T00:55:00.000+08:00

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Baby Janelle...

2009-04-05T18:11:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone this is a new member that just joined the Siew family..baby janelle..she is very cute and friendly ,she did not cry when she sees so many people crowding her...

Makeover

2009-04-04T02:53:00.000+08:00

I decided to go for a make-over becos i wanted a refreshed look not the dull dull me anymore..

BBQ

2009-04-04T01:19:00.000+08:00

Adrian finally called me to apologise...haha..i won the war...but he told that he got some bad news to tell me because he just finished his NS medical check-up...he is going to pes A...i was like..."nono you are playing a prank on me" unfortunately it is no fairy tale...damn it...i told him "you better don die for the country" or i will be a widow..and i told him that it is a possibility they will send him a letter to join commando..however he assured that they can turn the offer down..thank god! i still joke with him that i got no objections on him joining the commando as long as he transfer my monthly allowance on time...1) must more 2) must accurate 3) must fast..being an commando isnt easy but they got to travel to alot of countries..after which hearty came to my house and fetch me to the bbq party at punggol.i get to know more friends like maylene,janet and michelle..too pity that i din managed to get the photo that was taken with them x(..good night hearty..sweet dreams..

有人這樣愛...

2009-04-01T21:27:00.000+08:00

有人這樣愛...

在一次兩人共進晚餐的夜晚

女孩跟男孩提出分手的要求..

男孩起先楞了一下．然後默默的接受了....

女孩說我們還是好朋友

男孩說:恩~對呀~只要你有任何困難我一定會幫你的..

然後像平時一樣傻笑..就這樣..平靜的吃完他們的最後一次晚餐

之後男孩還是每天打電話給女孩..

問他過的怎樣?

回到家了嗎?

吃飽了嗎?

女孩雖然覺得奇怪但也沒問．理所當然的接受男孩的關心

直到那女孩在一次遷怒的情況下對那男孩說:那跟你沒關係!!

男孩淡淡的說:抱歉~打擾了

原來那女孩和他現在的男友吵架了．可憐的男孩成了出氣筒..

隔了一天女孩就沒接到男孩的電話了

女孩覺得奇怪..但也沒多想..

又過了幾天男孩還是都沒有打給女孩

女孩心想:搞甚麼?才念他兩句就給我耍脾氣真是的

算了~到底是我理虧我打給他好了.順便．告訴他男生別這麼小氣~~

女孩打了半天沒人接就算了還暫停使用勒~

女孩開始覺得奇怪了....

跑到男孩的公司找男孩．但是男孩的同事說那個男孩早就離職了

男孩的老闆是男孩的好朋友於是..那個女孩就問他那男孩去了哪呢?

他老闆說:我不知道我也在找他呀!?

女孩不死心.打電話去男孩家.男孩的家人說男孩出國了

女孩心想奇怪了

男孩的家境並不富裕怎麼可能讓他出國呢?(事實上男孩的家境也是女孩跟他分手的原因之一吧)

再說他要出國就算沒告訴我...他的朋友也都該知道吧?真奇怪????

滿心懷疑的她帶著滿心的疑問回到家中...

突然發現它的信箱裡有一封信!

她打開來看...是男孩寫的信..

這下她確定男孩的確離開台南了..只是沒有說去了哪?

可惡的豬頭~~走也不會說一聲~~

從此以後雖然女孩沒再見過男孩...但是總會定期的收到男孩的信

特別是重要的日子..如女孩的生日時他會祝她生日快樂並附帶禮物..情人節時也不忘祝她幸福..和鮮花聖誕節更是不用說..就連女孩考大學都會收到他鼓勵的卡片

所以雖然女孩已經很久沒見過男孩了但是還都能感受男孩的關懷..只是女孩發現男孩寄給她的信幾乎都是沒有寄信住址的~要不然就是轉寄的~真是怪了??

彷彿是友人直接把信放在信箱的??..

而且也不曉的為甚麼男孩的朋友們都變的對女孩特別好?

不但生日有禮物還會邀女孩一起出去玩....更甚的只要是男孩的朋友而她是女生的話還會主動邀女孩去逛街.聊天.講電話噓寒問暖等等..

關懷的舉動...令女孩覺得奇怪但時間一久了女孩也習慣了..

那段日子....她覺得好快樂好幸福..直到..女孩有一天發現男孩很久沒有寄信給他了..她覺得奇怪..但想說算了可能最近男孩比較忙吧?

但是一個星期過去了女孩還是沒有收到半封信...

她開始慌了..她不知道她為何會慌..只知道她想看男孩的信...

兩年了男孩總是會寫信給女孩..特別是在特別的日子裡總有男孩從遠方捎來暖暖的祝福..陪他繼續走下去..雖然女孩沒辦法回信..

但是這已經是女孩生活的一部份如今突然間消失了女孩突然發現好像少了一個依靠..女孩開始四處打聽男孩的下落..

到以前男孩常去的咖啡廳.茶店.書店.網咖.一坐.一待就是一整天...
只希望能看到男孩...但是都沒有...
男孩好像就從世上蒸發了..
她抱著最後的希望到了男孩的好朋友的公司...
問男孩的朋友及同事男孩的下落..

男孩的同事中有個女生叫的茹琳被女孩一問竟然哭了..
女孩問茹琳妳怎麼了?

男孩的老闆說:喂~~拿去打給這個人吧!!妳就知道他去那了...
女孩一看是一張有手機號碼的便條紙.
女孩很開心..心想:總算被我找到了吧!!
女孩打了手機...:喂~~~?

手機那端傳來的是一個男生的聲音.
雖然女孩已經快2年沒見過男孩了.但是她確定電話裡的人不是男孩

女孩說:請問.....
對方還沒聽女孩講完就說:喔..我知道你是誰了...
妳找我哥哥的吧?我等妳很久了...
你現在有時間嗎?方便出來嗎?我們約個地方祥談吧...
妳就會明白的...

女孩一頭霧水的來到和男孩的弟弟約定的地方
女孩一看就知道他的確是男孩的弟弟
因為的確蠻像的...

女孩迫不及待的問:妳哥哥呢?

男孩的弟弟沒說話只是靜靜的從手提袋裡拿出一封信...
遞給女孩...

抱歉..其實這封信前幾天就該拿給妳了只是我不知道
我應該怎麼拿給妳所以才拖到今天....

原來這兩年的信都是你寫給我的?!!女孩驚訝的問...

不不不不!!我只是代我哥哥交給妳罷了..

幹嘛那麼麻煩呀?真是的?故作神秘..

女孩雖然嘴中念念有詞但是還是難掩臉上的興奮....

打開了信....

嗨~~~ 穗妳最近過的好嗎?

天氣開始轉涼了唷~自己小心身體唷?書讀的如何呢?別太貪玩了知道嗎?

呵呵~把你說的像小孩子一樣..抱歉抱歉..

只是..我真的放心不下妳妳總是這麼需要人.關心.保護

不過妳放心我已經交代我的死黨們要好好照顧妳了...

因為在妳看這封信的時候我早就到了一個很遠的地方了....

我沒辦法在繼續照顧妳了..但我真的放心不下妳

所以我用了這個辦法來陪妳度過接下來的日子....

希望妳不要介意...但是這很可能是我的最後一封信了

因為我的時間到了....

很抱歉我真的不是不想見妳..

只是我不願意讓你看到我現在的樣子..

更不希望因為我而讓妳傷心難過...

我希望妳開開心心的..這是我最大的願望呀..而且也快聯考了呀

如果因為我害妳沒考上我大概沒辦法原諒自己

因為這是我的最後要求...

算一算大概有200多封吧?呵呵~希望妳不會嫌太囉唆~~

我雖然快離開了...但是我沒有後悔跟妳在一起過..

跟妳在一起的日子我很開心.....雖然...

妳最後不是選擇我...但這樣也好不然我真的不知道怎麼跟妳提分手

因為我不想連累妳...畢竟這樣的我是不可能給妳幸福的.跟妳分手

後我的身體越來越差!!到了醫院檢查...

醫生告訴我我只有3個月的壽命了...還好妳提早跟我分手了...

不然...呵呵~~~妳果然冰雪聰明....

所以我將日子算一算照著年歷寫了200多封的信在叫我弟弟幫我依照

日期寄給妳..就好像我還在妳身邊陪著妳一樣..

算算2年了吧?我想妳對我的感覺也比較淡了吧?

應該比較能接受這個事實了吧??

所以我在這時候寫最後一封信

再說我也沒辦法再寫了...

希望妳原諒....我不知道這樣對妳的影響會不會很大...

如果會..抱歉這次我沒辦法安慰妳了....

我只想告訴你我愛妳..我恨不得能一輩子照顧妳...就算最後妳跟另一個

男子攜手走向紅毯的另一端我也希望能繼續當妳的朋友.....

但我能嗎?我不能因為上天給我的時間到了...

雖然短促但是我覺得並不後悔...我的人生是完整的...

就像我們的戀情雖然短暫..但是我覺得值得了...

謝謝妳陪我談我今生的第一段戀愛..

如果時間能從來我不會去追妳...不會愛上妳..

過去能從來嗎?不能..所以我還是傷了妳....

如果明天的付出..等待..能讓妳我長相廝守我一定去做...

但我有明天嗎?沒有..所以我還是會離開妳..

如果現在我能無牽無掛的離開人間就表示我已經不再愛妳..不再在乎妳...

但我眼角的眼淚已經告訴我我放不下妳..

所以是的我.愛.妳......

不要為我哭因為愛過妳我很幸福...

割斷一段因緣很簡單...只要忘記思念的方法就可以了

所以忘了我吧....

愛妳的奈落NERON 2001/9/21 奇美醫院

女孩看著信上的時間是他們分手的一個月後....

也是她跟他說:這跟妳沒關係的隔天......

那天天氣轉涼了....秋天到了

那晚在台南的3皇3家門口一個女孩抱著一封信

痛哭失聲.....

Hello my blog

2009-04-01T21:26:00.000+08:00

Hello my bloggie. it has been a long time since i visit you...my mood wasnt feeling happy today because i made mummy angry..birthday chalet...in my heart i really thank mummy for booking it for me however i am angry because she did not discuss with me, thats the thing that make me so mad...she din even talk to me...boo hoo...4 days to my exams and i am still slacking..bloody hell CHERMAINE SIEW...TIME TO WAKIE WAKIE, i make sweetheart to hit my hand because my stupid tooty brain cannot absorb the notes...BUT when i forget he will use the ruler to make the piak piak sound...but i am going to meet sweetheart again...for japanese food...YUPPIE...I AM HUNGRY..nites my dear diary...miss you and sweetheart BUT I MISS HIM THE MOST<<<<3

JJ Concert

2009-03-29T01:56:00.000+08:00

JJ concert is definitely worth it to go and watch...i am lost at words now...x(

Happy 3rd Anniversary

2009-03-21T21:28:00.000+08:00

Happy 3rd anniversary my sweetheart, a review of the year- this year has not been that smooth at all but with the help of yours we never fail to make things fine..thanks sweetheart. I clearly remember that we had a big fight before i left for Kao Shiong and you din even say goodbye..you mean boy! i am gonna hit your ass tmr. Throughout the whole year, alot of things had happened that makes me want to treasure you and my family members more..current affairs are terrible i cannot find a job!! are you willing to adopt me home? you are the one who is always forking out the efforts in the relationship while i am the one who always demands more like i feel that you are not romantic at all, no suprises. That really pissed me off sometimes but i am glad that you are getting smarter by each day :) thanks for getting me breakfast when i have cravings during my exams, coaxing and patting me to take a small nap..When we were talking last night, you were telling me about your future about studying in SIM when you finished NS,signing on as an army officer getting your salary at $4000 a month and we will be able to get married..so sweet of you..thanks sweetheart love you...

2nd Year Anniversary

2008-03-22T00:25:00.000+08:00

Delicated to Adrian

Adrian, Happy 2nd year anniversary!!!wow time passes so faster that we are on the way to three years...yahoo...throughout this two years alot of things happened that we almost give up...it was you who kept giving in to me, giving me the best things that i can ever have..you always blame yourself for pampering too much that causes me to be so spolit but it was my fault to be a spoilt girl..i promise you that i will change but instead i turned for the worse..sorry...give me time to change myself ok?

Two years resolution:-发誓做个好女友

1)Promise to change for the better (hopefully not worse :X)
2)Love adrian more each day
3)Never throw my temper too much at him
4)Never bit him so much (but that doesnt give you the right to bit me back)
5)Never use break-up to threaten him
6)Never get jealous so easily( you must be joking!!)
7)Never hang up his call ( i am trying)
8)Talk to him nicely not shouting

I tell you the answer in eight years when i am ready to say my vows

1)love you more each day
2)hug you when you are back from work
3)kissing your cheeks before i sleep
4)cover your blanket so that you are not cold
5)buying back your favourite food
6)hug you back when we quarrel
7)remembering our anniversary and wedding anniversary
8)enjoy the food you cooked with no comments
9)never say you are fat
10)prepare breakfast for you
11)help you wear a tie before you leave for work
12)iron your clothes for work

Love you and enjoy our two year anniversary